Rainy Days

Once again after a stint of absence I return * crowd goes wild* OK, enough of my corny antics... for now. Its a bittersweet day in NYC as it rains outside and the clouds hang gray. On days like these I prefer to stay indoors with a few good DVDs, snacks, soothing music and a comfy blanket. So, what better to post than my baby Ne-Yo's new video?! "Part of the List" is one of the sweetest songs off his last album Year of the Gentleman. So, sit back, relax, and enjoy the video (even though I must admit, the kisses *kill* me) which is followed by a totally random piece I wrote a few years ago :)



whipped cream

soft silky caramel skin
your touch like velvety chocolate
sweet scents and glimmering shadows
the time we spend seems endless...

a fleeting glance, a swallowed scream
preparing for another day
a waking life separated by circumstance
we remain together in the land of dreams

eyes like black pearls
words written in strawberry red
bitter silence and salty feelings to be held
hand in hand with the infamous lover, regret...

a fleeting glance, a swallowed scream
preparing for another day
a waking life separated by circumstance
we remain together in the land of dreams

crystal tears healed with butterfly kisses
silent prayers to the heavens of man
a delectable concoction of love's ice cream
all dipped and covered with whipped cream...

a fleeting glance, a swallowed scream
preparing for another day
a waking life separated by circumstance
we remain together in the land of dreams

WTF

OK, lately I have been noticing a few things about some of the females in the music business, namely a lack of originality. A lot of them are trying to make a hit even long after their 15 seconds of fame has long since passed.

Example #1: Teairra Mari



















WTF is she doing coming back on the scene sounding too much like Ms. Keri who has already captured our attention? I mean, "What A Girl Wants" was a hot jam but that was about, say ummm, 4 years ago. I respect her persistence, I really do, but her last joint featuring Niki Minaj, sad to say, was just bad. Which leads me to my second example, Cassie.

We all know that Cassie is nice to look at but can someone tell her she needs to stop trying to sing? Using a sexy voice to talk over a track gets you only but so far. And maybe, just maybe, fucking around with P.Diddy has her feeling a little like Britney Spears because have you seen the new hair cut?!:

Example #2: Cassie

















So, in conclusion, can someone please let me know if the world has gone completely crazy or maybe just deaf?

FUNky!

So, I was a bit bored and decided to scour the internet in search of some...shoes! Not that I intend to shop with the economy in such a poor state, I much rather pay my rent and buy groceries. Nonetheless, I managed to get the hint that this year's shoe season is going to be one of wild color, high heels, open toes, and the occasional platform.

What it all means? It means that I found a few lovely yet odd designs that I just had to post and share with you all! I haven't made up my mind as to whether or not I'd attempt to wear these if given the chance. Then again, living in New York City just makes crazy things that much more likely!

Love Stinks by Melody Ehsani
















Naughty Monkey by Looks To Kill
















Ultra Girl Tinkerbell by Melissa Shoes

A look back

I know I haven't been the best blogger ever since I started "The BulletProof Diaries" and there is no excuse for that. However, such is life and I had a mildly stressful week so, please, bare with me.

Ever notice how frustration an anger can be converted into equally powerful and productive energies? Everything from art to literature to exercise can be done under the influence of these energies. Ergo, while feeling a bit upset over a series of events beyond the scope of this post a light bulb went off in my brain. I remembered an old poetry project that I had begun some years ago. All I did was collect poems by friends and family as well as notable authors and anonymous internet bloggers and began to compile them into a notebook titled "Paradox of Paradise". Somewhere between the pages I added in work of my own along with thought provoking quotes and pictures of medieval torture instruments/techniques. I know it sounds a bit disturbing but the whole thing put together is quite nice...

Here is the introduction to the book along with an excerpt of a poem (complete with exact image) I contributed to the collection:

Dear Reader,

The following collection of poems is one I personally assembled with the assistance of the those closest to me. I kindly advise that this collection is not for the squeamish or highly sensitive. Poems of all sorts: love, anger, sorrow, remorse, etc.- lie within the pages of this book in an effort to capture the beauty of words and are accompanied by diepictions that may be considered offensive. However, I do advise that when reading the lovely sentiments and raw emotion of these works, that you keep in mind that all the depictions were chosen for their symbolic and metaphoric meaning. I ask you to take these meanings and store them in the back of your mind while reading to provide the best possible experience. For my mission in combining words with images here is to provide perspective into the darkest areas of the soul where one may often feel lost and abandoned. Everyone has had the experience in which they have felt utterly alone whether it being within positive or negative aspects and the words written to form these poems, in many cases, are outlets of these emotions as they are written from ordinary people just like you and I. Occasionally, you will encounter the work of the more famous poet but they were people nonetheless. I hope you enjoy the collection for I have invested a great deal of time in copying and assembling these pages and I ask that you respect the views of those poets who contributed their works to the collection.

"Variations on a "This is Just to Say" by Williams Carlos Williams"

I amputated your limbs
when you were
asleep, last night
around midnight

You were probably
intending to
jog at sunrise,

Forgive me, but
the knife was so
sharp and you
looked so peaceful

To think that this was all created when I was just 15-17 years old, strange isn't it? Am I an emotional person? You decide...

Ever Wonder...?

Why don't some people appreciate life as they should? The slightest acknowledgment of a flower, bird, smile, or frown would do...

A Fly on the ® Train

Buzzing down Fifth Avenue, a fine day for flight
Circling Central Park, street vendors all about
I take a detour, a path less trodden
The subway line, letter ® for revive, relive, and return
My trip home hopefully a leisure one
Next to beings of ignorant bliss and petty pleasures

As the fly, I paused in my path to board the train,
The hollow heralding of a bell hums,
No movement, I just rest…
A station is reached revealing a crowded platform
Someone steps in not noticing me
My life is ended leaving my carcass cold

My death disrupted life’s natural balance within the train;
A lady next to my body frets about, agitated with thought
Shifting and adjusting as if made of plastic
My soul watches, standing by, did she not bare witness
To the arrival of the beast, manunkind?
My fly carcass on the floor beside her, rotates torn in two

I wondered how humans think and feel
What is normal and what is not
Questions that I will never know the answers to
Another stop on the subway line is reached
Like all things dead and gone I must leave existence
Bidding my fly carcass farewell

I've Got to Dream Big!

If you thought Fiji was gorgeous...wait until you look up Bora Bora! I don't remember when was the first time I heard about the island but I do remember it being mentioned in the movie XXX. Seems like I am not the only one enchanted by Bora Bora's beauty. I don't know what it is about Bora Bora and Fiji alike, but they just captivate my interest at the moment. Something about the blue water and white sand just says "paradise" to me. Similar to Fiji, the people of Bora Bora are largely uninfluenced by the western world, so tourists might be faced with having to take part in certain customs of the island (particularly with regards to fashion). But have no fear! It is all done as a sign of respect and good cheer. Will someone one whisk me away to this lovely island? Ha! maybe not in this lifetime but a girl can still dream, right? As aslways, feel free to explore your own dream destinations... until next time click here for more of the lovely Bora Bora (^_^)

House, MD

One of my favorite shows on television is House, MD. I absolutely adore the medical jargon, perplexing cases, and most of all Dr. Gregory House (Hugh Laurie) just exudes a special brand of charm! Then there are Drs. Robert Chase (Jesse Spencer) and Eric Foreman (Omar Epps) who stick by to make sure that the ever so lovable Dr. House doesn't go completely rouge. I also appreciate Dr. James Wilson (Robert Sean Leonard), House's best friend and confidant, I mean if you have ever seen the show you would feel the same way! After all who in their right mind would befriend a rude, obnoxious, Vicodin popping diagnostitian other than Wilson?! It is for these reasons and for the love of science/medicine, that I induct the men of House, MD as the first men in my "Sexy Men" collection.

Dr. Gregory House (Hugh Laurie)





















Dr. Robert Chase (Jesse Spencer)


















Dr. Eric Foreman (Omar Epps)



















Dr. James Wilson (Robert Sean Leonard)















Catch All the House, MD you can watch here